Though I know you hate when I put my stuff in public but I have not had my calls answered and all the texts I get are so angry. I am know you read my posts (though I am not sure if you re ad them anymore) so I am going to take a chance and hope you read this one. I won’t name you or anything. You will just know.
You’re really angry at me. And I’m not sure why. The last time we talked, I heard a lot of things but non of it made a lot of sense. That’s OK. I know that you have issues with me. I have been distant in the past. I’m pretty sure we all have. But then you should talk to me about it. I am very well aware of my limitations (more than you know) and am willing to listen. Some of your points I will agree with, some not. But that’s why we need talk.
Listen: I am not your “counselor” and you are definitely not my “counselor”. But, when I am wrong, I always acknowledge it. When ask for advice, I always tell you to do the right things, even when I am bothered about it. You may not like the way I am now (which ain’t all that bad), but I always busted my ass for you. I really think I deserve more than what I am getting. At least a phone conversation.
Now you can respond to this in one of two ways: You can think about it and deal with it or you can be pissed. I don’t care which you choose. And I’m not going to try not to stress out about it. The reason is simple: I can’t change your mind and I have no control. I just need to trust the right thing is going to happen.
Here’s what you need to remember: I’m here and I`m waiting. I’m never going to reject you and tell you to “screw off” if and when you decide to call. I love you, am proud of what you have become and will settle with that knowledge if I have to.